2 B or not 2 B

its d same old story frm ma side again ;
stl sittin at home doin nothin ...
u know , i m so comfortable doin nothin dat now its dificult 4 me 2 try n do somethin...
at tyms wen i get bored i remind myself dat ders not much dat i can complain abt..

i get free food , shop wenevr n watevr i want , ders no pressure on me 2 do nythin , i hav d whole tym 4 myself 2 do nythin i like ... :)

at tyms wen i feel dat i m wastin my life .. simply sittin
i convince myself dat i m not gonna liv ma life in a rat race ..
y shud i do somethin coz evry1 eles is doin too...?
cant i take a 6 month vacattion n do nothin !!!

at tyms i sit n wonder whether dey r all comfrtable lies dat i feed myself , in order 2 run away frm d gulit of simply sittin n rottin ??

pata nahi ...

is it coz of d huge tym dat i spent alone dat i feel lonely ?
i miss my hostel , ma life der ...
u know nowadays , i m jus existin ...
draggin myself frm one day 2 another ...
nothin 2 luk 4wrd 2 ...

but am'nt i d only only one 2 b blamed ?
its my fault dat i m sittin idle n bcumin unwilling 2 let go of d past?
isnt it ma fault wen i confess " i know i wudnt b so upset abt being away frm ma hostel if i had been doin somethin regular? say somethin likea job or studies ?"

nothin cums easy in life ..
if u want 2 b complete , den i guess i hav 2 strt takin pains..
strt explorin ...
srtr bcumin uncm4rtble n find ma way 2 cmfrt ...

all i need is a resolution !
a moment wen on d verge of my perish , i decide dat enuff is enuff n dat i m nt goin 2 let myself rot !!!

i will strt afresh ..
i'll b a new sannya
a sannya dats gonna b diffrent frm d exquisitiv sannya dat ma hostel created...
a NEW sannya , wid n whole new different personality !!!